We see... what we want to see,
but only a drop of what could be.
Stop me if I'm going on...
I dream in stale complacency.
And in other words ...
tell me you're all right.
Just a whisper and I dreamed you cry,
but I survived, courageous here ...
and in other words ...on other worlds.
And when my hands begin to bleed
will you stay and comfort me?
I feel afraid I might be living. Yeah.
And if I had to the ends of Time
would I ever make you mine?
Just a whispered "yes" is all I need.
Tasting you still on my tongue,
shaking conch shells one by one,
and trails of peaceful inequities.
Insincere flattering by other ones
in other words ...
And when these wounds upon my brow,
begin to seep the truth we found,
do you feel we need to keep giving?
And if I promised the world for you,
I could make it all come true.
With a whispered "yes" it's all I need.
I don't know about tomorrow.
I just know, I'll remember today...
and the way... you looked at me.
If my hands begin to bleed
will you stay and comfort me?
You looked at me.
You looked at me.
As I struggle with organzing a web design layout for the most confused client on the face of the planet, I find myself more than irritated. I'm hating right now.
ng. I wrote up an outline for this week as to the status of the various bits and pieces of what was going on and where things were at but frankly, I was mainly interested in the latte I had. It was delicious.
Fuckin' Delish!
(((TMI Revalation/Spoiler Follows)))
I also have to admit that I must be reaching super horny heights because I became kind of stalkerish when I noticed this hot man had a nice form fitting blue t-shirt on and his lats were just so nicely defined. Going to the gym where an old date used to attend (not sure if he still does - if he does, he must be really different looking because I don't see anyone resembling him - back to the shirt guy), I have been running into (almost literally) some fine and prime examples of the masculine sex (no, smarty pants...I'm not talking about butch lesbos here... you silly folk!) and it is really taking a toll on me. When I saw this man, I had to sneak his picture on the sly. The resulting photos (shitty) came out in this order:
My pal, Archpriestess Star (aka Kris in this here photoblog), gave me the BEST news ever. I was afraid that I was going to miss out on the Market Days event on N. Halsted (I thought it was the weekend of the 3rd of August) but found out that it is not actually that weekend!! Whee!! I'm so happy because I was going to have to miss it if it were on the weekend of the 3rd. I'm attending a benefit for a good family friend who is ill... well, I plan to but I also juggle my time in helping with medical stuff for my Mom (the coolest lady). So... I'm not sure what will happen but the plans are loosely in place for the weekend of the 3rd.
Also on that Friday that starts off the weekend, I am once again hooking up with my Lou. He started his new Buzz account but I have to encourage him to upgrade to faster Internet service so he can get on this thing and share comments with all you coolassfolks. He also has a MySpace but fuck if I remember if it is as simple as just tagging on the studio1031 address. No more tabs are being open in my Firefox browser because I'm pushing the limits of my system's resources. Anyhoo, we are going to have a fun time going over everything in life and more. I'm excited! Oh, and while I was waiting for photos to upload and shutting down my system, I found his MySpace address. I need to get him up to speed on setting up a MySpace URL. We are going to work on a nifty little web site for his artwork and such. Both he and Jamie are talents that make me want to crawl into a fuckin' shell. Well, okay... I can't draw but I can annoy the dickens outta people like a pro... that is an art unto itself.
Okay, I have to jet out to get home and read up on the "Wink" user guide. Seems very easy...
Have a good weekend. BuzzFolks!!
B
What were the sports or games you played in high school or college?
Submitted by Stephen.
I was not very coordinated as a high schooler. I did like playing floor soccer (as we called it in the old Catholic school gym that my school had). I did want to dabble in certain sports and I always loved watching boxing. It wasn't until my senior year in high school that I started finding my footing and coordination in things. Plus, we had a wonderfully bizare gym teacher that pretty much let us break from the constant playing of basketball (which I hated).
...B.
Everyday the cough gets better and I have a few days more to go on the antibiotics... but... man, this cold really sucks. I don't usually whine about them but this one has just been aggravating to the hilt. Alas, don't all colds really suck?
I just checked out the new Smashing Pumpkins video for Tarantuala on their site www.smashingpumpkins.com. I'm not sure what I think about the video right now but the song is okay. Honestly, though... I just don't get this Smashing Pumpkins "reunion" at all. Maybe I missed something but all I can say is that it isn't a reunion without D'Arcy and James. If Billy would just have said the Smashing Pumpkins are being resurrected but with this new lineup.. cool... they hype machine around this all has left a bad taste in my mouth (much like the meds). I will give the new CD a listen, though. Billy still makes great music and the Smashing Pumpkins moniker will give him license to "rock out" some...
Regarding this cold. I have not been doing anything since the coughing has really kept me at bay. So, nothing new to report. I"ve maintained mostly a low profile and stayed off this computer for quite awhile because after doing what is needed at work, I just have not felt up to it. So, that's it for now. This is my only quick update as to what's been going on. I hope to be back online and updating regularly within the next few weeks.
Hope you are all well...
B
When you don't feel good... 
I sometimes wonder if it is just me that acts this way. I'm not quite sure anymore... I whipped out the digital camera and tried to best illustrate the pain and discomfort that I feel tonight. Here it is. To me, it also kinda makes me feel like I'm putting a little fun spin on being sick, which, of course, was not intentional. It was just what the camera caught. I am not using paragraph structure in this post and I'm not quite sure why... Alas, it is just a spur of the moment formatting decision. I think it was inspired by the hydrocodone. Well, enough of my bitching and moaning. It is time to move on to the land of slumber. I'm taking a break from the photo blogs and such until I give myself a chance to totally heal and rest, you know? I need to pay attention to health matters because I think things are catching up with me. Worry, lack of sleep, more stress... You know, sometimes you just need to take time to catch your breath. The funny thing is, while I'm typing this, KISS' "Rain" (from Carnival of Souls) is playing. How interesting to me... I'm not quite sure why...
Tell me what youre dyin to say
Throw your feelings up in the air
Let the pieces fall where they may
Open your eyes
You cant deny
Its just a fantasy, yeah
Some things will end, some will begin
Some things will never be
- Rain
But that can wait. It is now time to heal and get back in the swing of things after doting on myself for a bit.
B
WTF? My posts are not working through Picasa... Fuck. I typed up some shit about being sick and all and now it is gone.
I must be a glutton for punishment.
Oh, well. I'm gone for a few weeks.
Here is a pic I took at lunch today. The guy in the blue shirt was quite fetching. Yeah, something went up with the camera but it kind of fits... Something just out of reach...
B
So, there has been a lot going on behind the scenes. I just got the gift of an Olympus evolt 300 (sp?) to use. I'm thinking that I may have to keep this awkward treasure. I'm liking some of the photos that are coming out. Three of my last four pics on my Buzznet account were taken with the new camera. However, I have been holding off on posting the others as I am just getting ready to use the damn thing. The fact that the advanced controls give me more manual control than what I have on the old cheapo Canon. It's an exciting new world of possibilities.
The featured picture in this post ("left") was taken a few weeks back. When I decided to treat it, I wanted it to have a feel of an antique kind of parchment from an old boxing manual or something. It was meant to be dated looking but it also plays along with the left hand (and arm) becoming the dominant of the two. I find it quite interesting how that all has worked out. My left hand and arm have the strength whereas the right is lagging a bit because of the accident. A fight for control... a left jab to feel out the opponent.
I have to go now. I’ve been bopping in between typing up this entry and answering posts in our forums here at work. My reload time takes forever so I figured that I would multitask here. Now, I am helping decorate a friend’s cube here at work. It is her birthday tomorrow and she is simply marvy.
Later…
B
I love this new song. Dio's voice is fantastic as always...
